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Secilia Luna in Singapore! [Nov. 29th, 2011|01:01 pm]
[Current Mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[Current Music |Primary - Secilia Luna]


As you know, Secilia Luna came to Singapore for a mini concert!!
I'm too lazy to write about it all because too many things happened.
But here's a picture of us, HAHAHAHAHAH.

I've got checki's of all members except Ageha!
So therefore, I took this picture with him.


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I'm really really stressed out. [Nov. 2nd, 2011|05:21 am]
[Current Mood |frustratedfrustrated]

Geography exam in less than 3 hours.
I haven't slept in more than 24 hours.
More like 1 and a half days.
I can't deal with this.
I have stress rashes breaking out all over me.
A terrible headache to the point I just have to rant.
I can't sleep or I'll never wake up.

Just pull through.
Apple, just pull through.
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I should be studying now, though it's 5am in the morning. [Oct. 23rd, 2011|05:22 am]
[Current Mood |rushedrushed]
[Current Music |Pro Nails (Rusko Remix) - Kid Sister]

I want to get my hair done at the salon later.

That's not the point.

Point is, I need to stop seeing someone.
Because there's obviously another bitch.
Well, she hasn't done anything to me.
But whatever, I'm possessive.
I'm a fucking Leo.
I'm dominant as fuck, understand?


Bright side, I got my VIP tickets to catch Secilia Luna's mini live concert in Singapore ~

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Why? Really, why? [Oct. 9th, 2011|11:58 pm]
[Current Mood |listlesslistless]

I'm not going to turn to you for help anymore, so that's done.

I sprained my ankle during the soccer match today aginst Shoot FC.
The injury happened 1 minute after the game started but I ran through the pain and continued to goalkeep.
That obviously made things worse.
I can't let my team down that's why I kept pushing myself.

O level science practical is in less than 2 weeks.
I'm gonna be on crutches now from the injury.
I was in the hospital 2 weeks ago, had a fever the following week.
Now this.

I've never been this miserable in my life.
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Not again. [Oct. 5th, 2011|12:22 am]
[Current Mood |frustratedfrustrated]

I don't want to be all miserable but I really need somewhere to rant about all my pent up anger and feelings.

I'm angry at how I'm so egoistic.
Egoistic as in I don't like people to look down or think I'm not capable of doing anything.
I want to be good at everything because I can't help but accept every challenge that comes to my face.

I'm trying so hard on my diet.
I want to get rid of my weight to be a better soccer player and not look like a fat disgusting human being.
I feel terrible when I'm with everyone around me.
I want to change myself to suit me better.

I 've been studying alot.
I don't like it, but I don't want to let my parents down.
Everyone's also telling me 'I'm smart'.
How can I not push myself to meet all these expectations?
I want to believe that I'm good, that I'm of good use.
But I fall ill all the time due to the stress.
Then here goes 'Apple, take care of yourself. You should stop doing this.'
Fuck no, I'm not gonna stop.
Don't look at me as though I'm weak. I know I can fucking do this.
I've already come this far, there's no turning back.

I know that I should think about what's best for myself and what makes me feel better.
But how can I when all of this is being shoved into my face and the only way for me to feel accomplished is to take on these tasks?

What do I want?
I have support from my parents which I'm grateful for. I can't let them down.
But when you have a sister that tells you that you'll fail your major exams, which you've been in school for 5 years and studying for, how is it helping?
I'm not in a good stream that's why I'm in Secondary school for 5 years instead of 4.
I did well and came back for a 5th year to get into a better school when I leave.
Here she is telling me that I shouldn't even be in the 5th year cause I will FAIL it.
Fuck this, it's fucking affecting me.
I don't hate her, but I've been helping her when she needs me and this is what she says?
I don't have an older sibling since I'm the oldest of the 4 kids.
Did I have an older brother or sister to guide me?
Fuck no.

I don't want to have to be dependable on anyone that's why I'm really doing my best.
Even though I'm sick with a fever right now, I'll keep pushing myself.
3 more weeks till it officially starts.

I just pray and hope I don't collapse again.
I can't afford to.
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I'm falling, slowly. [Oct. 3rd, 2011|12:25 am]
[Current Mood |stressedstressed]
[Current Music |Silence]

O levels is killing me.
I can't deal with this.

Sleepless nights filled with stress.
It's too much pressure living up to everyone's expectations.
But I have to.
I don't like to give up, I never want to.

My health is restricting me.

I'm at the point where I really don't know if I can do this.
I'll keep going even though I'm slowly reaching my breaking point.
I will do what I can.
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I spoke to you today. [Sep. 29th, 2011|12:47 am]
[Current Mood |tiredtired]
[Current Music |Shard - Secilia Luna]

It made me happy.
You can make me forget about someone else.
But the minute you're gone, that person comes back.
It's only in a matter of time things might get better.
Or the other way round.

I'll be waiting, patiently.

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I need to do my hair soon. [Sep. 25th, 2011|09:55 pm]
[Current Mood |groggygroggy]
[Current Music |Sober - P!nk]

I'm not in a good mood.
Never anyone to have deep conversations with.
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Yeah. [Sep. 24th, 2011|11:46 pm]
[Current Mood |thoughtfulthoughtful]
[Current Music |If I was you [OMG] - Far East Movement]

I know barely anyone reads my livejournal.
I wonder if I should keep posting this to my twitter account.
Maybe I shouldn't.
I'd rather the people that read my livejournal be friends that can be bothered to check.
I'm not that interesting to begin with ANYWAYZ.
Ok, serious business.

Studied from 12am to 6am with Maria.
Productive and glad I did it.

Surprised Howieeee at VJC with a cake! ^^
First time decorating a cake from the icing room.
God damn, it was so fun.
Too bad that Howie's a 21 year old manly boy and the cake was supa girly ~
Had to leave early to go for lunch grandma.
Hope everyone at JSSL at least tried that cake.

I feel really grateful to Krizzia, Kristiania and Alexis for making their way down to SengKang just to decorate the cake.
Ahhh, I love all the friends I've made at JSSL.
No, really.
Should have another Ladies and U18 outing ~

Alright, I really want to read yaoi.
I have no idea why.
Gonna end here!

Reminds me, Japanese I2 is ending a week after O's is done.
4 levels of Japanese and I'm still afraid to speak. Ya ok, totally.


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It's been awhile! [Sep. 1st, 2011|12:34 am]
[Current Mood |confusedconfused]
[Current Music |The sound of my sister playing Maple. Why!? Whyyy!?]

Had football training today ~ Tiring but fun.
I hope I'm improving cause really, the league is coming up in a week plus.
Major exams also in a month's plus.
What am I doinggggg.


Lying in bed, all sore and tired.
Life's been good, kinda okie.
It's Puti's birthday as well, so Happy Birthday to my girl too!

I'm actually really sleepy right now.
So I guess I'll make this short.

Until something interesting happens, bye y'allz.

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